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"10 years of;"

ILLA CONSTERNATIONE ET ILLO APOKALUPSIS

Ten years ago something started to change in my life, changins will always exist but from that year turbulent happenings
stroke me like a hurricane and untill nowadays I don't know where I will stop.

In 1997 I was arrested and tortured by the X9 (secret police) of the then ACM government and I was about to be executed,
because of a painting in a wall in Salvador, a wall that contained paintings of diverse artists from the city, I made an
occultist symbol that represents the illuminated, I was in company of a friend of mine that suffered with me all that
cruelty. The interesting is that days after I read fragments of a book of occultism that talks about the illuminated, about
love and forgiveness. In the torture and jail I felt nothing of evil and despite all the strikes they made on my head and
other parts of my body, none lasted, both pain and marks. We were shown on TV and newspapers, we were associated with
delinquency and they invented on A Tarde journal that we were demarcating the narcotraffic territory. It was a weight
heavier that we could take.

Soon after I saw my mother in full health state languish in a cancerous metastasis and die one year later.
The streets in the historic center of Salvador, where I lived, transformed in a ghost zone with the arrival of crack and
some time later the house where I was born became ruins completely destroyed.

I listened gothic music and had in depression a shelter, in the black clothes a style, in alcohol a medicine and in friends
a nihilist society of poetry and chaotic thoughts.

I believed that the world was going to end and that I would find a concealed door, a messenger and the hope.
The consternation is a state of disillusion and sadness, the apocalypse a state of confusion and transformation.

I'll say that for me it started with this drawing that showed me inside, something that exists of powerful and active,
the spirit, the imagination.

When I felt that my end had come, I could see that death is many times just a symbol of changes and that occurred spiritually
with me, I saw the light, I found the messenger, I knew the message and I reborn from the ashes of my past.

ILLA CONSTERNATIONE ET ILLO APOKALUPSIS

Author: Fernando FC
Technique: Ballpoint pens, colored pencil and common paper
Dimension: 109cm x 117cm (42.91" x 46.062")
Produced in may 1997
First artwork made with ballpoint pens by Fernando FC

Now I follow the paths of hope.